When someone breaks your heart, your perception of them shatters along with it.
They become like a broken mirror. The person staring back at you once familiar becomes distorted. All the light breaks through the cracks and reveals what was there, even if you don’t want to see it. Even if you don’t want to admit it to yourself. It’s all out in the open.
Their faces becomes a kaleidoscope. Shifting every second, sometimes as the beautiful being they once were. Their eyes that welcoming blue like the sky. Their smile so warm. Their laughter a gentle melody. You view them in that rose tinted way, so breathtaking. In shades of sunny yellow. Of pink flushing cheeks and noses. Of purple evenings tangled in each other. Of passionate red with heavy breathing and soft angles. Of vibrant blues beckoning you closer and closer in. All these shades brighter than the next. Full of joy. Full of muse.
Then moments later it shifts and the darkness seeps through. So the yellow is too blaring, hurting your eyes. Desperate red, with puffy eyes, trembling lips, and shaky breath. Begging. Pleading. Don’t Leave Me. Blue nights when the shadows settle in and their words echo in the walls. All shades of navy, indigo, royal. Each deeper and darker then the next. Green with envy, when she pulls you in and I let go. Her fingers in your hair. Her fingers on your skin. Her green eyes swallowing up your blue.
It all fades to one shade of gray. So empty. So haunting. So unsure. All of the colors in you washing away until all that’s left is memories.
Now I see you and all I see is gray. Fleeting reds, blues, greens, and sometimes yellow if I catch an old picture of you smiling. You lost all your brightness. You lost yourself.
I however am glowing in shades of emerald, violet, scarlet, gold, silver, and so much more. Painting the world with everything I’ve felt. Sometimes about you but never for you. Only for myself.
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